Mom and Me, Rainforest Cafe London, England 9-06As I write this today, I am thinking of a phone call I received one year ago today at 3am from my sister, totally distraught telling me that our Mother was dead. It is still hard for me to believe, I miss her so much and I miss talking to her. The fact is that I probably didn't talk to her as much as I should have but I was lucky enough to have talked to her just 2 days before. We were planning her trip back to England in September, she was going to go into work on Monday and put in her leave request. We were going to go to Paris, just she and I. She never made it to work on Monday. The fact that I didn't talk to her as much as I thought I should have was ok, because I could have just picked up the phone and called her whenever I did get the fancy to do so. As I no longer have that option, I find myself wishing I could and missing her more than ever. Even if it is just to ask her a question about a recipe or a sickness I might have had as a kid or to compare myself as a child to my children. These are all things that I can never again do. They say time heals all wounds, and I can say that this is true, it has gotten easier, only because life goes on for the living. Even as harsh as that may sound, it is the truth, I have a family that depends on me, both my kids and Husband and I would also like to think that my brothers, sister and father depend on me, even if it is just to be a small part of their busy life.
As I look back, I don't know where the time has gone and it is really hard for me to believe that it has in fact been one year. I think of my mother every day and even though the pain of losing her has eased somewhat, it is still painful. To everyone who has lost a loved one, be strong and keep your faith. This in loving memory of my Mother: Liz Phillips!!!
I love you Mom
4 comments:
Hey Girl Just checking in on you. Wow, I was not aware that you lost your mother. God only knows, how you feel. Between you and Christina I thought I had certain problems, mine are nothing compared to the tragices that you have to overcome. May God keep you safe and I can not wait to see you all this summer. Love ya Jeanne
I am so sorry. I still miss your Mom, my Sister. I just know that she is in a better place. She was to come down to my place for Easter like she had done for years. I will keep all of you in my prayers.
Uncle Dick
Susan, what a lovely tribute to your Mom...I know she's very proud of you and your brothers and sister and your children....she will never be forgotten.
Love you,
Mom O'Dell
Susan, you are my rock!! I do not know how I would have made it through this past year without your support. I think of all the times I s/w/could have called mom when she was alive but did not. Now that it is too late to call her, I realize how much time I wasted holding onto feelings which could have been so easily laid to rest.
I loved mom so much. I still do not understand why she was taken from us so soon. For her, I understand she is in a much better place, but we all know I am a selfish person. I want to hear her voice, see her face, feel her touch. I want to hear her tell me she loves me...just one last time....I love you Susan
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